Monday, January 17, 2011

Pregnancy Meltdowns

So we all now how magical pregnancy is! Along with all the other awesome symptoms comes the pregnancy hormones. I went from screaming slightly raising my voice, to crying all the damn time. Granted, the crying has help me get a few more things done around the house. (However, John Paul is now immune to my meltdowns and crying no longer gets me my way. It’s quite unfortunate)
Long gone are the days of throwing bread and screaming at my husband until I’m over my tantrum. Bring on the tears!

I cried a couple weeks ago because Bert wouldn’t help me put up the bed in the room we just finished. I REALLY wanted that bed up before I went to sleep. And before you ask, ummm no it could not wait till the next day. And yes it might have been after 10. I cried. I mean all out sobbed! *I was also crying because I broke my steam mop that I had used ONE time – Berty swapped it out for me! After this meltdown we put the bed up and all was right with the world!

Last week Berty got called in to work early and when he left I had the mother of all meltdowns. I had to call my mommy just to regain my composure – ummm and regulate my breathing because it’s really hard to cry and breathe when you’re pregnant! The fact that he works nights 7 days in a row has never bothered me until now. I feel like he’s never home and we never see each other. I’m not gonna lie, it bothers me now that he spends more time with the people he works with than with me. Don’t get me wrong, I love the girls he works with but they get to see him 8 or 12 hours a night. I see him for 4, maybe 5 hours on the week nights he’s off.

I think I was crying because I know it will be harder when the baby gets here. I feel bad and we still haven’t talked about it because he has to work and it’s not his fault. I used to embrace our time apart but now I’m scared I’m going to be all alone with TM and I will ruin her forever!

I also meltdown when I can’t decide what to eat. Or we have to go somewhere. Or there’s no more orange juice. The fact that my hair is all weird now. My face is splotchy. I watch 16 and pregnant and freak because the baby has to come out of my vag.

Ahh pregnancy! Happy Monday friends!!


Danielle said...

LOL! I know exactly how you feel!

Katie @ Chronicles of KT said...

oh its all so true!!

Susannah said...

I die! And I can totally identify!! It will last for about six months after birth too! Sorry girl!

Annie said...

oh hun :( i'm sorry you miss your hubs. your daughter will not be ruined by him not being around a lot. she has you! and maybe once baby comes things will change a little?
and if crying makes you feel better, cry it out. she remember to control your breathing ;)

Jenny said...

LOL! But really its not funny! If crying makes you feel better then cry! My sister was the same way with her first pregnancy! She would call me out of the blue and would be crying because a red light was red not green... Things like that!

Mrs. Werginz said...

You poor thing! I am sorry you are having some icky feelings right now! You are going to be able to have that baby out of your vag! :) I'll pray for some peace for you about JP and his job once precious TM arrives!

::Crystal:: said...

Cheer up! You both will work out a schedule when the baby comes, and you won't be alone. It will all work out. ps. Thank you for your honesty and humor!

Brooke said...

You will NOT ruin my sweet Turner McCartney because not only will she have you and JP she will have the most awesome support system ever like me and TB:) LOVE you and that sweet baby!!!