Dear God....

It's me Margaret Brittany....

I have a slight HUGE obsession with Blogs. I love to read about other people's personal thoughts and how their lives play out. But lately I have become burnt out on reading about how {happy} these people are Every. Single. Day. Can they really be this happy with their significant other, and never feel frustrated or angered or just plain over it?? Am I a horrible wife for having these terrible feelings {sometimes}.

I occasionally find myself whispering this prayer:

Dear God,

It's me. Brittany. Please give me the patience to deal with my husband. Why does he get on my nerves?? Why does he have to ASK me what needs to be cleaned in order for our house to be in perfect "showing" condition. Can't he just take a look around.

When we are working {together} on HIS homework, why must I think only murderous thoughts and secretly wonder how he made through nursing school without me. Why is my prayer then "Dear God, please give me the strength to not kill my husband."

Love,
The worst wife. EVER.

Am I the only wife who whispers these prayers under her breath? Am I really the worst wife ever for feeling frustrated with my husband? I love my husband. I really, really do. He is my joy and the reasoning behind everything I do.

{But} he frustrates me. He angers me. He occasionally provokes me into B*tch mode and I just can't help it.

This year my prayer will be:

Dear God, 
It's me. Brittany. Please give me the strength and courage to love my husband with {all} of myself. To love him solely and carelessly. To laugh and run and play with him like we are 5 year old children. To not care what others think of me. To bear my feelings for all to see and not care what the return glance, thought, or comment means. 

Give me the courage to love like this and not have a care in the world. 

Love always, 
Brittany

Baby Blues???

So some of our friends are preggo! Awesome! I mean they could have waited on me but I guess they weren't concerned. Seems like a lot of people I know are pregnant or have just had babies. It makes me want a baby of my very own!! I know we aren't really ready for a child seeing that we have no money and no room!! {Awesome!!}

So in the midst of this Debbie Downer mood, I stumble across a blog and begin reading a girl's story of her turbulent pregnancy. This poor girl had hyperemesis. In other words, she threw up and was nauseated all day everyday for the duration of her pregnancy. I'm not talking a little stomach discomfort and a gag here and there. I'm talking projectile vomiting. ALL DAY. E-V-E-R-Y single. DAY. No thanks. Not for me. I don't do nausea and I definitely don't do throwing up. I'm sure this hyperemesis is rare but you know I don't need to take any chances.

So I've decided that I will just borrow TBMommy's kid! WHAT?!?!?!?! I can't borrow your kid because of some aforementioned incident??? Awesome!!! I guess I will have to find someone else's (is this a word?) kid to borrow and get my baby fix!

New Blog...

So I have decided that with the new year I will start a NEW blog with a {new} purpose. I find myself thinking on a daily basis of things that I wish I could say out loud. Well what better way to vent my feelings than typing them out for others to read.

This blog will now serve as {my} personal journal to write down my true feelings, no sugar coating allowed!! I am excited about this new purpose and I can't wait to share my feelings on "paper."

New Year Reflections

Happy New Year!!! In looking back on 2009 I think I am ready for a new year and a clean slate. There were a few fabulously awesome things that happened in 2009, but there were also some things that I can't wait to move on from.

Reflecting back on 2009 here are a few things worth mentioning

1. My wedding!!

I had the most amazing wedding EVER (now I am partial but our parents threw us the best wedding). I could never thank our family and friends enough for such a wonderful day/night!! It was amazing to be surrounded by our best friends and beautiful family for such a special day.

2. Spending time with my grandfather before his stroke.

Exactly one month after my wedding, my grandfather (the only living grandfather I have) suffered a massive stroke. We are very thankful to have him with us but it is definitely hard to adjust to his post-stroke self. He can no longer walk or do things for himself and he requires around the clock care. I am so very thankful for the time I got to spend with him and the fact that he was able to WALK down the isle on {our} wedding day.

3. My perfectly {amazing} GRANDmother.

The most amazing person I have ever known passed away in November. I am so thankful for the 25 years I had to spend with her. *I started a post on this back in November and have yet to find the courage to finish it* It will happen soon! :)

I am so happy for a new year to start fresh and list {several} things I wish to accomplish personally and with my husband.

10 Things to look forward to in 2010.....

1. Getting in shape....so cliche I know, but really.....I have gained 6lbs since November!! I have been eating non-stop since Thanksgiving. It's bad. And it doesn't help that Bert has been in the gym religiously and is losing weight and looking better than ever!! Thanks babe for making me feel like the cow I have become!

2. Selling our house!!! I have threatened my lovely realtor that I might burn down the Villas if we don't sell it soon! Please {Lord} let someone buy our house! :)

3. MOVING!!! If everything works out as planned we will be buying my grandmother's house. I cannot wait to have a big backyard for our babies!

4. Paying off our debt!!! We are in way too much debt! Bert has ONE semester left to finish his BSN and then hopefully he will take a break from high tuition schools! We need to work on becoming debt free!! This is a major goal for 2010.

5. Joining a church. We have been going to Trinity UMC since November and we love it! Hopefully it will be on our hearts this year to join the church.

6. Growing in our relationship. We signed up for an 8-week class at church on making marriage last! I am excited because even though we are newlyweds I feel like there is so much we need to improve with our marriage.

7. Becoming more involved in animal rescue. This is a HUGE passion of mine and my husband loves deals with it! I want to be more involved with this in my community.

8. Working towards starting a family.....probably not going to happen til 2011 or 2012 or when I'm 40!!! But I can dream! :)

9. One of our favorite couples is expecting a little girl in June and I cannot wait for her arrival!! Like really can't make it to June!

10. And finally....I hope to be participating in a couple of my bestie's weddings this year....we will see what happens with that!



Happy 2010!!!

Love,

Brittany

Christmas Festivities

I absolutely LOVED our Christmas card this year! I found this card on etsy and all I did was send our pictures to the lady and she sent me back the jpg file for the card. I had them printed at Walgreens and voila! A fabulously cheap Christmas card to share with our friends and family! Now as you may notice, my children are exceptionally cute and look very well behaved! Now we all know looks can be deceiving and well these posed pictures in front of the tree were all but simple to capture. :)

I have been super busy with all my Christmas gatherings. Unfortunately...my parents are divorced and well ya know that adds a lot of homes to visit on Christmas Eve and Christmas day. :)

The Hubs parents came down the week before Christmas to celebrate with us and Mel (the sis-in-law). We had a blast stuffing our faces and spending time with his side of the fam! Fortunately for him us, his parents still love each other, I know it's not normal - parents don't usually stay married do they? - so we didn't have to spend 3 days visiting ALL sides of his family. (You know like we had to do for my completely normal functional fam!)

We got 2 kids off the Salvation Army Angel Tree and had a blasty blast shopping for them! The Hubs and I just do stockings for each other, and our children of course, and we have so much fun with it! This year on Christmas morning I made a Breakfast Casserole and we headed over to Ricker's and did Christmas with my daddy and Trisha. After that it was off to Mamaw's for more stockings and food with my mom's side of the fam! Then....we headed to Brookwood to visit Bert's (a.k.a. the hubs or John Paul) grandmother whom we never get to see. It was nice to go visit with her and Kenny. We left Brookwood and went by the house to check on the kiddos and then we headed to Addison to see my step-mom's fam and eat some more food and open more presents!

Whew!!! It makes me tired just writing it all down! And did I mention that my wonderfully fabulous husband worked Christmas Eve from 11-7 came home and did all these fun festive activities with absolutely NO SLEEP?!?!? Yeah he's amazingly awesome. :)

I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas! I am going to post pictures from our Christmas festivities later tonight!

Maternally Challenged

So last night I had the pleasure of picking up the cutest little girl {EVER} from school. I mean have you ever seen a cuter face?!? I know you haven't!

I was super excited to see her sweet face. So I left work (in the tornadic weather....well not really tornadic but super scary darkness!) and headed to pick up TB. Now TB happens to go to school where I went to school so you're thinking I should know how to find the pre-school. WRONG! So I call my bestie Courtney and she directs me to the "new" road that leads to the preschool. Now this "new" road is actually a ghetto-fied gravel/dirt sketchy PATH to the pre-school. Once I make it to the school I go in and see TB and we're off to find her back pack and car seat.

Now, most normal people know how to install a car seat. Well folks...I am maternally challenged. TB and I spent a good 10 minutes trying to figure out how to put the *$!@ thing in the car. With a little a lot of help from the munchkin I figured it out and got her secured in her carseat and we were off to McDonald's for some chiten(chicken) and FRIES!!

I took TB home {sad day} and we played for a bit with Mommy and T and when I had to leave (because the tornadoes were coming, and TBMommy and T were murdering mice) she cried pretended to cry because she wanted to go with me. It broke my heart and I promised TBMommy that we would have a play date next weekend so she and T could have a grown-up date. I can't wait.

Happy Birthday Warbux!!

I know....long time no blog! I have been a huge blog slacker and my hopes of keeping this blog for my personal journal has completely failed!



I have so much I need to write that I don't know where to begin. But for now I will post about my WONDERFUL father who turned 60 {gasp!!!} today!




So my daddy is pretty much the best daddy EVER! He's the most amazing man I know. Honestly I am super stressed that he is 60. That doesn't seem right to me. He's so youthful and awesome so I guess age really is just a number...



I can't wait to see him tonight so he can open his amazing gift from his (fabulously awesome) daughter and (handsome) son-in-law. It's a new PS3 game that is supposedly the. best. ever. And of course there will be ice cream cake for all. I can't wait!



Happy Birthday Ricker!! You are the best daddy a girl could ever ask for.

Brittany